This is an all too common mistake people make towards the more popular blog mods out there. They hold these people higher above others, and every little action they make dictates who they are and it’s just not fair. If we don’t respond to fans, we ‘don’t care about them’ because we’re apparently too stuck up to respond to “lesser beings”. If we do, we’re ‘egotistical’ and judged for every opinion we have, and ‘letting the fame get to our heads’.
Because we’re well known, people hold our work to standards beyond any they give to the lesser known blogs. Every little mistake is thrown up on a podium and pointed at, and because we’re supposedly popular and egotistical, we apparently wont ever improve our art or our story and we don’t like critique because we’re all a bunch of stuck up jerks or something.
I’ve been treated wonderfully on tumblr so far. I havn’t really let the negative stuff get to me. I respond to it, yes, but I respond to almost anything about me, positive or negative. Because I CARE about what people think of me, not because I’m paranoid about impressing everyone with my supposed “godly” presence that has been thrown on me by admirers.
If I ignore the negative stuff and only respond to the positive, people assume I’m ignoring progress and refuse to accept critique or the fact that I have flaws.
But at the same time, if I respond to the negative, no matter how calm, collected, and open I am to the comment… People accuse me of being dramatic and- surprise surprise- unable to accept change and critique. Even when I bluntly say ‘I have a lot to improve on, I’m not perfect, I know’, people seem to insist that I’m being overly defensive of myself.
I’m not. I’m really not. I’m not good enough to be noticed anywhere other than the pony fandom. I’m not good enough to publish my art anywhere. I’m not as good as a lot of artists out there, not by a long shot. I’m still learning as I go. I look back a month in my own blog and I go “Oh my god that looks terrible, what was I doing there?” which is proof enough that I’ve been improving as I go. There wont ever be a day where I will feel fully satisfied with my skill. Ever.
People may not know, but I’ve drawn so many new things I’ve never drawn before in my blog. I’m learning how to draw perspective and inanimate objects my biggest weaknesses in art.
Another note: Please don’t compare yourselves to me as a way to judge your own art. No matter what, there will always be a ‘bigger fish’ out there. I am not a god, I am not an idol, I am not even all that amazing, and it hurts so much to see other people drop their art because of me. It’s happened so much because they sit there judging themselves against what I do, when I’ve had over 17 years of experience and schooling backing me up.
And you know what? I smile and appreciate when even beginning artists come to show me what they do, because I want to be an inspiration but I do not in any way want to be a goal. I am NOT a goal, alright? I don’t care how ‘bad’ your art may be, it’s still something you worked on and you were brave enough to draw it, and that’s what matters.
A lot of my life was spent in others’ shadows, and compared to the kids I was in school with, I was just a worthless sap who was left unnoticed in the shadow of AMAZING prodigy artists. There are days I look at other art and go “What am I missing? Why can’t I reach this level of artistic ability? Why can’t I ever seem to reach the quality that will actually be worth something?”
Every. Single. Day.
I am just a jobless idiot who wants to sell my art but can’t because I’m still missing so much that I need to learn.
Also, just look at me. Look at me. I’m so ashamed of myself that I have to hide behind a fake name. I’m really just a person who has lost themselves and I am trying to hard to find who I am again. I’m really not someone to look up to right now because I’m really a very broken and hurting person…
- Submitted by discordwhooves
((Now that’s some inspiring words))
Jitters, you couldn’t be more right…
…hell I even feel a little downed a bit because ‘some’ people get annoyed because i dont update enough…or it isnt ‘kinky’ enough for them…or just me drawing SFW stuff in general…it’s like im hated no matter what I do, if I do NSFW I all of a sudden get judged for everything because I drew a vagina here and there…if I draw SFW they are like OMG YOU’RE NOT KINKIE ANYMORE BLA BLA …
Sometimes I like to draw other things than fucking sex all the time…maybe I like to mix things up? I’m not going to stick to just one fucking genre…I get bored easily…doesn’t mean I’m bored with my tumblr or bored being me…it just means i have other things on my mind and i want to do it because its fun. i don’t want my tumblr to becum a chore…I mostly want them to entertain them in anyway…yeah i do understand it says askkinkiepie…im not an art blog, im not a drawblog, im not a storyblog…im like something else kind of blog…
I’m more annoyed by the fact that SFW artists wont go out of there way to get to know me before judging me…sometimes im in a pissy fit mood one day…doesnt mean im a total dick bitch for crying out loud…or sometimes there are just those clish clashes of personalities that dont mix well. sorry butt i learned that you cant be friends with everyone…as sucky as that is…and no matter how hard i try…some people just wont like you…not to mention im a huge annoying chatterbox that doesnt shut up…soooo i couldnt blame anyone…
Yeah sure im kinkie…butt since when is kinkie sooo bad?
I’m not evil or anything…I’m NOT an actual like rapist…and couldnt really be anyways lol…
I’m just a horny person…is all.
Anyways enough about me…
I love yer art…butt i dont really treat your tumblr as an artblog…or a draw blog, its a story blog to me…because theres an actual story in it…vs. HI IM CUTE, LOOK AT ME DOING CUTE THINGS! ooorrrr SEX SEX SEX SEX SEX…
If you want to improve your art…you might have to change it…and what i mean is…trying new things…try a new style …something that you dont usually do…experiment……I do THAT …a lot…sexual and nonsexual lol.
Now I’m actually really jelly of most artists because they actually have an art style…I dont, not at all…every single thing is different in some way…no matter what…
Sure this means I can do tons of art styles that most artists probably cant do, but THOSE artists will always succeed or do something better…
It’s more like i dont have a specific talent, it’s more like im good at a lot of things, I’m just not pro.
I don’t know…im rambling on again…all I can say is that I do love yer blog…half the time i dont look at the text because storyblogs arent my thing …butt at least people know you from yer art…you have a unique art style and everyone can tell that its you and your art…I wish i had that…I wouldnt be worried about what other people think, it’s YOU and YOUR ART…and most importantly YER BLOG…
hell if 100 people unfollow you just because you drew a penis on DW then fuck em…who cares..if they cant handle a fucking dick …it just shows that they are even scared of their own dicks…its art…its not hurting anyone, not to mention its fucking nature …i dont know how many times i need to say this…and speaking of which… the people that have overreacted over Rai drawing Rule 34…two words. Fuck off.
Just…this.
